On day 1, I never believed it was possible to come home from work,and not feel fractious that I wasn’t going to open a bottle of wine ever again, in fact 3 days in to the course I was still drinking, on 6 April 2017 I stopped. I read how other people didn’t feel the need to buy wine and go home and consume almost 2 bottles a day and to be honest I never never thought it would happen to me. But it has!
Day 43 with the course ended could I imagine a life alcohol free? Yes I could, because I hated how I felt before so much, to go back to my old ways and feeling the way I did would be self sabotaging and now for the first time ever I was beginning to like myself and be kinder to myself. I never thought I would ever like myself. I read how other people took the course and felt better about their selves but I never thought it would happen to me, but it has!
Day 75 I was so tired all the time, really tired, I was disappointed I thought being alcohol free would energise me I read how people felt great at 100 days and never thought it would happen to me. But it has!
So here I am on day 100. Feeling great, more energised, calm, love sitting watching the TV at night not drunk and waking up in the morning not feeling sick or depressed and liking myself! more importantly wanting to look after myself and looking forward to an alcohol free life. A whole life! Like all of us here I have big hurdles still to cross but as Kate says “baby steps” and “keep on keeping on”
I still wake up everyday with “drinking” on my mind but that is because I like to play the movie forward every morning to remind me not to romanticise alcohol and see it for what it is. Maybe on day 200 I won’t have to do this quite so much but at the moment I don’t want the wicked wine witch to have any excuse for getting into my head❤️