am : Sunday – Day 143

What a difference 100 days makes! Because I have never been alcohol free for this many days before (well…  Except for when I was pregnant in 1989)  when I look back to my post of day 43 I know that there is a massive difference to how I felt then and how I feel now. 

Day 43 – I took the fast cat to the Isle of Wight for my mums birthday lunch. I had a coffee whilst waiting for and during the crossing. All I thought was wow 43.days ago I would have had a pre departure glass of wine, whilst crossing glass wine and thank God I got there wine. Copious amounts during the lunch a few on the way back and felt like shit when I woke up in the morning. But I didn’t I had coffee and soft drinks, it was all still very new and I constantly thought about wine. Roll on 100 days… 

Day 143. The feelings/cravings have definitely eased. I can make a roast dinner now without stressing about not opening a bottle of wine. I can enjoy an afternoon on my own without opening a bottle of wine. I can go to the pub and have alcohol free beer and be pleased about it. I can go to a restaurant without having wine and not feel hard do e by. I can go out (believe me if you drunk lots of wine going out just for a walk or to the cinema is a definite no no) so I go out walking now! Amazing since I never walked anywhere. I love it too. Even though I constantly ache.   I do still eat a lot of sweets though but definitely not as many as I did in the early days of sobriety. 

I have also accepted that alcohol free living is my future. There is no benefit for me in having a drink. 

So the good news is if in just 100 days I can feel so much better what will I feel like in another 39 days which will be 26 weeks alcohol free! I will let you know. 😃

Oh and nearly forgot. The diet/slimming world plan is finally going in the right direction again. Went to Wallis and bought a size 12 dress (bit different to 3 years ago when I went in for a pair of size 18 trousers!) Became a member w/c 30.3.15 had a lot of losses and also gains and maintains even staying the same for almost a year! But down a number now and only 11½ pounds to get to target. Total lost so far 2st 4½ 

The lovely Olli and Luci (my birmans) are doing well, yesterday they had steamed basa! Lucky devils.. Spoiled rotten those two. Honestly I get up at 6am, feed and stroke them, play with them, clean up after them, go to bed late and feel Knackered because of them and when they want a cuddl and some love do they come to me… No they do not OH gets it! Great lol. 

Have a good bank holiday, stay true to yourself. If you don’t want to drink alcohol, don’t drink it!