Herbal tea with lemon, delicious! So here I am at day 332. Snow has thawed after causing havoc! cats have woken me up early for their breakfast, eaten it and gone back to sleep! And I am reflecting on how long 332 days alcohol free really is – well its 7,968 hours! That’s insane! I could never go a day without wine not nearly 8,000 hours!
I feel a whole lot better being alcohol free, but I have also spent 7,968 hours thinking about not drinking. I need to focus my mind on other projects but have this awful restless feeling in my head.
For example, and this has been me for over 20 years. I wake up and “pace” I can’t settle down to a good book. I can on holiday. I can’t just lay down on the sofa and watch a film. I feel like I’m always pacing around looking for something to do but don’t actually do anything! I feel guilty if I haven’t sorted the washing. I do a bit then sit. I tidy up a bit then sit. It’s like I want to sit and do nothing but feel I should be doing things. When I drank I was able to sit or slump for ages, moving only to top up my glass!
I need to get out for a good walk!